Sitting up at the big kids table.

Fun party at the big kid table
Originally uploaded by kristn1284

It is not as though I do not have blog material, I really do. My goal is to post something everyday this week to get caught up. Things have just been crazy, with the holidays, work, preparing for Brother, there just isn't enough hours in the day.

I wish I could explain why this picture breaks my heart. From the outside it is just some kids eating cake a party. But these kids I have known since birth, they are our playgroup friends that we met at our nursing Mom's meetings way back when we all used to sit around the table and discuss nursing, sleeping and all things infant. Now look at them, sitting up at a picnic table unassisted, eating cake with big people forks not even looking around to see the Mommies hanging out close by. They were independent, confident and totally on their own. All the things I want for my daughter, just not right now.

Annabelle was so into this party, she has been talking about the cake & milk ever since. I think it is about more than cake & milk, it is about hanging out with her friends, sitting up at the big table and all the things that come with being an individual little person.

I have to admit a bit of sigh of relief later when some altercation over a toy sent her flying back into my arms for some comfort. I think we both needed it.